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ONLY ONE BREATH



By Unknown Author

This morning I was talking to Venerable Subbato and he was saying he
never has developed Anapanasati - mindfulness of the breath. So I said
, ' Can you be mindful of one inhalation ? ' And he said , ' Oh yes.'
' And of one exhalation ? ' And he said, ' Yes.' And I said, ' Got it
! '

There's nothing more to it than that. However, one tends to expect to
develop some special kind of ability to go into some special state.
And because we don't do that, then we think we can't do it.

But the way of the spiritual life is through renunciation ,
relinquishment , letting go not through attaining or acquiring. Even

the jhanas* are relinquishments rather than attainments. If we

relinquish more and more , letting go more and more , then the jhanic
states are natural.

The attitude is most important. To practise anapanasati , one brings
the attention onto one inhalation, being mindful from the beginning to
the end. One inhalation, that's it ; and then the same goes for the
exhalation. That's the perfect attainment of anapanasati. The
awareness of just that much is the result of concentration of the mind
through sustained attention on the breath - from the beginning to the
end of the inhalation , from the beginning to the end of the
exhalation. The attitude is always one of letting go , not attaching
to any ideas or feelings that arise from that , so that you're always
fresh with the next inhalation , the next exhalation , completely as
it is . You're not carrying over anything. So it's a way of
relinquishment, of letting go, rather than of attaining and achieving.

The dangers in meditation practice is the habit of grasping at things
, grasping at states ; so the concept that's most useful is the
concept of letting go , rather than of attaining and achieving. If you
say today that yesterday you had a really super meditation ,
absolutely fantastic , just what you've always dreamed of , and then
today you try to get the same wonderful experience as yesterday, but
you get more restless and more agitated than ever before - now why is
that ? Why can't we get what we want ? It's because we're trying to
attain something that we remember rather than really working with the
way things are , as they happen to be now. So the correct way is one
of mindfulness , of looking at the way it is now rather than
remembering yesterday and trying to get to that state again.

The first year I meditated I didn't have a teacher. I was in this
little kuti* in Nong Khai for about ten months , and I had all kinds
of blazing insights. Being alone for ten months , not having to talk ,
not having to go anywhere , everything calmed down after several
months, and then I thought I was a fully enlightened person, an
arahant. I was sure of it. I found out later that I wasn't.

I remember we went through a famine in Nong Khai that year and we
didn't get very much to eat. I had malnutrition, so I thought, ' Maybe
malnutrition's the answer. If I just starve myself...' I remember
being so weak with malnutrition at Nong Khai that my earlobes started
cracking open. On waking up , I'd have to pry my eyelids open ; they'd
be stuck shut with the stuff that comes out of your eyelids when
you're not feeling very well.

Then one day this Canadian monk brought me three cans of tinned milk.
In Asia they have tinned sweetened milk and it's very very delicious.
And he also brought me some instant coffee, and a flask of hot water.
So I made a cup of this : put in a bit of coffee , poured in some of
this milk , poured hot water and started drinking it. And I just went
crazy. It was so utterly delicious, the first time I had anything
sweet in weeks, or anything stimulating. And being malnourished and
being in a very dull tired apathetic state, this was like high-octane
petrol - whoomph ! Immediately I gulped that down - I couldn't stop
myself - and I managed to consume all three tins of milk and a good
portion of that coffee. And my mind went flying into outer space, or
it seemed like it, and I thought, ' Maybe that's the secret. If I can
just get somebody to buy me tinned milk.'

When I went to Wat Pah Pong the following year I kept thinking, ' Oh ,
I had all those wonderful experiences in Nong Khai. I had all those
beautiful visions, and all those fantastic floating experiences and
blazing insights , and it seemed like I understood everything. And you
even thought you were an arahant.' At Wat Pah Pong, that first year
there, I didn't have much of anything. I just kept trying to do all
the things I'd done in Nong Khai to get these things. But after a
while , even using strong cups of coffee didn't work any more. I
didn't seem to get those exhilarations , those fantastic highs and
blazing insights , that I had the first year. So after the first
Vassa* at Wat Pah Pong , I thought , 'This place is not for me. I
think I'll go and try to repeat what happened in Nong Khai.' And I
left Ajahn Chah and went to live on Pupek mountain in Sakorn Nakorn
province.

There , at last , I was in an idyllic spot. However, for the almsround
there you had to leave before dawn and go down the mountain , which
was quite a climb , and wait for the villagers to come. They'd bring
you food , and then you had to climb all the way back up and eat this
food before twelve noon. That was quite a problem.

I was with one other monk, a Thai monk , and I thought , ' He's really
very good ', and I was quite impressed with him. But when we were on
this mountain, he wanted me to teach him English ; so I got really
angry with him !

It was in an area where there was a lot of terrorists and communists,
in North-East Thailand. There were helicopters flying overhead
sometimes checking us out. Once they came and took me down to the
provincial town, wondering whether I was a communist spy.

Then I got violently ill , so ill that they had to carry me down the
mountain. I was stuck in a wretched place by a reservoir under a tin
roof in the hot season with insects buzzing in and out of my ears and
orifices. With horrible food  I nearly died , come to think of it . I
almost didn't make it.

But it was during that time in that tin-roof lean-to that a real
change took place. I was really despairing and sick and weak and
totally depressed , and my mind would fall into these hellish realms ,
with the terrible heat and discomfort. I felt like I was being cooked
; it was like torture.

Then a change came. Suddenly, I just stopped my mind ; I refused to
get caught in that negativity and I started to practise anapanasati. I
used the breath to concentrate my mind and things changed very
quickly. After that , I recovered my health and it was time to enter
the next Vassa , so I went back - I'd promised Ajahn Chah I'd go back
to Wat Pah Pong for the Vassa - and my robes were all tattered and
torn and patched. I looked terrible. When Ajahn Chah saw me, he just
burst out laughing. And I was so glad to get back after all that !

I had been trying to practice and what I had wanted were the memories
of these insights. I'd forgotten what the insights really were. I was
so attached to the idea of working in some kind of ascetic way, like I
did the first year, when asceticism really worked. At that time being
malnourished and being along had seemed to provide me with insight, so
that for the following several years I kept trying to create the
conditions where I would be able to have these fantastic insights.

But the following two or three years seemed to be years of just
getting by. Nothing much seemed to happen. I was six months on this
mountain before I returned to Wat Pah Pong, just deciding to stay on
and follow the insights I had. One of the insights the first year was
that I should find a teacher, and that I should learn how to live
under a discipline imposed on me by that teacher. So I did that. I
realised Ajahn Chah was a good teacher and had a good standard of
monastic discipline , so I stayed with him. Those insights that I had
were right, but I'd become attached to the memory.

Actually, insight is more and more a matter of living insightfully.
It's not just that you have insight sometimes, but more and more as
you reflect on Dhamma, then everything is insightful. You see
insightfully into life as it's happening to you . As soon as you think
you have to have special conditions for it, and you're not aware of
that , then you're going to create all sorts of complexities about
your practice.

So I developed letting go : to not concern myself with attaining or
achieving anything. I decided to make little achievements possible by
learning to be a little more patient , a little more humble , and a
little more generous. I decided to develop this rather than go out of
my way to control and manipulate the environment with the intention of
setting myself up in the hope of getting high. It became apparent ,
through reflection , that the attachment to the insights was the
problem. The insights were valid insights, but there was attachment to
the memory.

Then the insight came that you let go of all your insights. You don't
attach to them. You just keep letting go of all the insights you have
because otherwise they become memories, and then memories are
conditions of the mind and , if you attach to them , they can only
take you to despair.

In each moment it's as it is. With Ana-Pana-Sati , one inhalation , at
this moment , is this way. It's not like yesterday's inhalation was.
You're not thinking of yesterday's inhalation and yesterday's
exhalation while you're doing the one now. You're with it completely,
as it is ; so you establish that. The reflective ability is based on
establishing your awareness in the way it is now rather than having
some idea of what you'd like to get, and then trying to get it in the
here and now. Trying to get yesterday's blissful feeling in the here
and now means you're not aware of the way it is now. You're not with
it. Even with anapanasati, if you're doing it with the hope of getting
the result that you had yesterday, that will make it impossible for
that result to ever happen.

Last winter, Venerable Vipassi was meditating in the shrine room and
someone was making quite distracting noises. Talking to Venerable
Vipassi about it , I was quite impressed , because he said first he
felt annoyed and then he decided the noises would be part of the
practice. So, he opened his mind to the meditation hall with
everything in it - the noises, the silence, the whole thing. That's
wisdom, isn't it ? If the noise is something you can stop - like a
door banging in the wind - go close the door. If there's something you
have control over, you can do that.

But much of life you have no control over. You have no right to ask
everything to be silent for ' my ' meditation. When there is
reflectiveness , instead of having a little mind that has to have
total silence and special conditions , you have a big mind that can
contain the whole of it : the noises, the disruptions, the silence,
the bliss, the restlessness, the pain. The mind is all-embracing
rather than specialising on a certain refinement in consciousness.
Then you develop flexibility because you can concentrate your mind.

This is where wisdom is needed for real development. It's through
wisdom that we develop it, not through will-power or controlling or
manipulating environmental conditions ; getting rid of the things we
don't want and trying to set ourselves up so that we can follow this
desire to achieve and attain.

Desire is insidious. When we are aware that our intention is to attain
some state, that's a desire , isn't it ? So we let it go. If we are
sitting here, even with a desire to attain the first jhana , we
recognise that that desire is going to be the very thing that's going
to prevent the fulfilment. So we let go of the desire , which doesn't
mean not to do anapanasati , but to change the attitude to it.

So what can we do now ? Develop mindfulness of one inhalation. Most of
us can do that ; most human beings have enough concentration to be
concentrated from the beginning of an inhalation to the end of it. But
even if your concentration span is so weak you can't even make it to
the end, that's all right. At least you can get to the middle, maybe.
That's better than if you gave up totally or never tried at all, isn't
it ? Because at least you're composing the mind for one second, and
that's the beginning : to learn to compose and collect the mind around
one thing, like the breath , and sustain it just for the length of one
inhalation ; if not, then half an inhalation , or a quarter , or
whatever. At least you have started, and you must try to develop a
mind that's glad at just being able to do that much, rather than being
critical because you haven't attained the first jhana, or the fourth.

If meditation becomes another thing you have to do, and you feel
guilty if you don't live up to your resolutions , then you start
pushing yourself without an awareness of what you're doing. Then life
does get quite dreary and depressing. But if you are putting that
skilful kind of attention into your daily life, you'll find so much of
daily life very pleasant - which you may not notice if you are caught
in your compulsions and obsessions. If we act with compulsiveness it
becomes a burden , a grind. Then we drag ourselves around doing what
we have to do in a heedless and negative way. But being able to be in
the countryside - the tress, the fields, we have this time for a
retreat - we can sit and walk ; we don't have a lot to do. The morning
chanting, the evening chanting can be extremely pleasant for us, when
we're open to it. People are offering the food. The meal is quite a
lovely thing. People are eating mindfully and quietly. When we're
doing it out of habit and compulsion ! ! ! , then it gets to be a
drag. And a lot of things that are quite pleasant in themselves are no
longer pleasant. We can't enjoy them when we're coming from
compulsiveness, heedlessness, and ambition. Those are the kinds of
driving forces that destroy the joy and the wonder of our lives.

Sustaining your attention on the breathing really develops awareness
but when you get lost in thought or restlessness, that's all right
too. Don't drive yourself. Don't be a slave driver or beat yourself
with a whip and drive yourself in a nasty way. Lead, guide and train
yourself ; leading onward, guide yourself rather than driving and
forcing yourself.

Nibbana is a subtle realisation of non-grasping. You can't drive
yourself to Nibbana. That's the sure way of never realising it. It's
here and now, so if you're driving yourself to Nibbana, you're always
going far away from it, driving right over it.

It's pretty heavy, sometimes, to burn up attachments in our mind. The
Holy Life is a holocaust , a total burning, a burning up of self, of
ignorance. The purity that comes from the holocaust is like a diamond
; something that went through such fires that all that was left was
purity. And so in our life here there has to be this willingness to
burn away the self-views , the opinions , the desires , the
restlessness , the greed ; all of it , the whole of it , so that
there's nothing but purity remaining. Then when there is purity, there
is nobody, no thing , there's that , the 'suchness '.
And let go of that. More and more the path is just the simple being
here and now, being with the way things are. There's nowhere to go,
nothing to do, nothing to become, nothing to get rid of. Because of
the holocaust, there is no ignorance remaining ; there is purity,
clarity and intelligence.

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Obtaining and submission of completed form with Statutory Declaration done is accepted throughout the week. However, to ensure an effective service, KBC has adopted the method of service by appointment only.

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New Year Message From Bhante Mahinda

Subject: NEW YEAR MESSAGE FROM BHANTE MAHINDA_4

NEW YEAR MESSAGE FROM BHANTE MAHINDA

As we approach the new calendar Year of 2009, I would like to take this opportunity to remind you about the New Year resolutions.

You must have heard people talking about it. But what are the resolutions to make and how to make them?

Before you make your resolution for the New Year, please recall to mind of the good things you've done throughout the year 2008.

When you recall an action or an event which is good or wholesome you'll feel some joy & happiness in your hearts. That's how you'll recognise a good or wholesome action.

Try to recall of at least 3 of such actions or events which you participated. The practice of contemplation of virtues or merits is called SILĀNUSSATI. This will help to establish in you a sense of confidence in cultivating good or wholesome qualities. When you develop this skill you will find it very useful, especially when you are feeling somewhat low and depressed. The contemplation of virtues or merits will help to uplift your spirits and get out of your negative state of mind.

For example, those of you who have been to Bodhgaya for the Novitiate Programme, just recall to mind of this event and the time you spent under the Bodhi tree or in the sacred shrine or the meditation garden, observe the joy/happiness that arise in your heart. Similarly when you recall of how you saved the life of a cat or dog, or performed some other charitable act, you can feel the joy of doing good. That's how you'll be motivated to do more good things.

That's when you're ready to think of a few good things that you'll do for this coming year. Then you make a firm resolution to carry them out.

The thought of avoiding or overcoming certain bad habits (in body, speech or mind) is a good thought.

Basically we should all try to resolve to avoid all evil, to do the good and to purify one's own mind. But merely repeating the words is not good enough. You need to identify at least one bad habit that you'll try to quit and get rid off and at least one good thing you'll do again and again (such as cultivating metta or loving kindness throughout one full day a week. Then increasing to everyday and in every direction whether standing, walking or moving around, sitting or lying down. The thought of purifying your own mind is a good one. Resolve to go for longer retreats next year.

Once you've made these resolutions and you're happy, and quite comfortable with them, then go to the Buddha – to a shrine or a quiet and sacred spot – and make the resolution again & again until you've sure that's what you really want to do. Seek the blessings, guidance and protection from the Triple Gem so that you'll be able to fulfil your aspirations and overcome whatever obstacles that may arise. The good things that you wish to do are the aspirations. The resolutions you make is your determination, the effort and perseverance to fulfil your aspirations.

If your aspirations is to attend a month long retreat to purify your mind and if you so resolve to do it, then that resolutions will give you the strength and courage to do so thus fulfilling your aspiration.

ADITTHANĀ or resolutions/determination is one of the 10 Paramita or Perfections.

If you wish to do something and do not have the resolutions or determination, your mind tend to waver. You get into the situation where you're undecided yes, no, yes, no. If you are really resolved and determined to do something then the wavering disappears.

Remember how the Buddha made his resolutions under the Bodhi tree. He declared to himself:

"Let my body wither away, let my blood dry up.

I will not get up from this seat until I realise the Truth."

Such was the strength of his determination. This gave him the power to confront and overcome whatever challenges and threats that Mara had plotted and carried out against the Buddha.

The next thing to consider is that when making your resolution/determination you need to weigh and consider the pros and cons of the situation that you are in. You need to be fairly confident that what you wish to carry out is feasible.

If you go to that Bodhi tree now and make the resolution which the Buddha made, then you are in for big trouble. So take time to weigh and consider things.

That's why you need a few days to prepare your resolutions. You may list out all the things that you wish to do for the year. Then prioritise them. Which one more urgent, which one needs greater attention.

When you've decided then go to your favourite shrine or a quiet and sacred spot and declare your resolutions for the New Year. It is good if you can do it on the New Year day itself. Because somehow Jan 1 tends to make some people feel new, i.e. time for a change, a change for the better (however for those with wisdom everyday can be a New Year).

Once you are clear with your resolutions, repeat iT again and again. During that time you may make some adjustments and even drop off some things that you're not so confident with or even add on something that has arisen in your mind.

If your faith and confidence in the Triple Gem is established then seek blessings, guidance and protection so that you'll be able to fulfil all your aspirations for the year. After you've made your aspiration you don't have to cling on to them, reciting them day in day out. What you need to do is to learn to connect with your heart. Day by day practice the Dhamma with right effort, create the necessary conditions for your aspirations to be fulfilled. That's how your resolution will be accomplished.

Wishing you and all other members of your family and friends, a peaceful and happy New Year.

P/S: Bhante wishes to thank all those who have done Bodhi puja and other prayer dedicated for his good health during the past few months. His health is now almost back to normal, but will be spending most of next year in self-retreat.


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